Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

It has served me well for the past 6 years, allowing me an opportunity to live my dream, but the time has come to say goodbye. Ironically, it has been my longest relationship since I arrived 8 years ago and it has been a very difficult decision. Afterall, it is like a baby that I had nursed and now, I have to let it go and watch it grow under someone else's care.

Over the past few months and particularly so the past 3 weeks, I had made unreasonable demands on myself, putting myself outside my comfort zone to achieve what I finally set out to do a few years ago. Maybe part of it was to prove that I was still capable and the only way to do it was to dive head on. I am proud of myself but I am now wide awake at 5.30 am this morning, feeling the effects of the morning after.

I am leaving my job. To many people, I have become an image of my workplace. The reliable person that you get when you call or come to the retail end of the store. I don't have all the solutions but I try. I didn't have any experience running a business but I did it. There are many things I achieved that I should be proud of, but they are not quantitative. It is not only the success of the business but the relationships I have established. The suppliers, customers and my close relationship with my boss.

I told John last night that I still have a lot of love for my boss as a person because we are more like friends than boss and subordinate. However, the workload in heavier periods has sometimes created a bit of resentment, so this has freed the opportunity to care about him like a friend once again.

I guess I can always see it not only as moving on in life but progressing to another stage of our relationship, which will make it easier because I stilll want this friendship. I'd always knew it would be difficult but it has to be done ...

Thank you to all my friends who have been so supportive during my dormant years and pushing me on to achieve this, especially John. A step up towards our future!

爱到分离仍是爱。
不只是情人，
工作也一样。
可能我比较善情，
所以才会矛盾。
可是毕竟是一种爱，
离别抉择终有伤痛。